Day 16 Dream Job!

Growing up I have had some different dream jobs. I wanted to be a teacher at one point. Than later a labor and delivery nurse, than it was an oncology nurse. Always in the back of my mind I wanted to be a wife and mom. More specifically I wanted to be married to someone in the ministry. As I have gotten older my dream job as changed to being full time wife and mommy. I have been a full time stay at home wife since marrying Jeremy and hoping that before to much longer the second part of being a stay at home mommy will happen. So I have been living half of my dream job for almost 5 years and I am excited to start the next half when God chooses.

Day 3 ... Meaning of my Business Name.

Well I don't have a business so I decided to change this one up and give the meaning of my name Jeremys name and the names we have picked out for our children.

My Name is Katherine Elizabeth

Katherine means- Pure and consecrated to God
Elizabeth means- Beloved or Oath of God

Jeremy's name is Jeremy Lee

Jeremy means- Exalted of the Lord
Lee means- Pasture or Meadow


We have 3 names picked out for our children

Gideon Jeremiah

Gideon means- Mighty Warrior
Jeremiah means- Whom God has Chosen

Judah Isaiah

Judah means- Praise
Isaiah means- The salvation of the Lord

Zoe Grace

Zoe means- Abundant Life
Grace means- Unmerited Favor



When I was younger I really came to understand that words are powerful and our names are words and that when you name your children to be careful because that is what you are speaking over your child everyday and it can be a curse or a blessing. My mom always said had she realized this before she had us kids that she would have definitely looked and maybe researched more before picking our names but my brothers and I ended up with some powerful meaning names. Since I realized what power names have I researched carefully any names I liked for my kids before I was married. Each one of the names Jeremy and I have picked out have all come to us either from something God spoke to us about our children or out of a time of testing. Jeremy and I are not sure how our children will come to us whether by personal pregnancy or all by adoption but we know that God has powerful plans for all of our children even if there is more than the 3 we have named above. God is in control of our family and we know he will bring the babies when and how many we are suppose to have and give us the wisdom and guidance to raise them and to know when we are done having babies.

Positive, Positive, Negative, Negative, Negative???!!!

So 2 weeks ago today I took 2 pregnancy test (different brands, different times) and they both turned out positive. Jeremy and I were ecstatic especially since having been told that we might not be able to have children of our own. We quickly told his our parents and a couple of very very close friends. For the most part though we kept it very hush hush until I was able to go to the doctor to confirm the pregnancy. I had a few symptoms some slight nausea, constant tiredness, and irritability. We even bought some baby stuff to prepare. I was cautiously optimistic until it was confirmed through the doctor. A little less than 2 weeks after the test at home I went to the midwifes office and we did the initial exam and did a urine sample which was negative (although not surprised as I had been up for around 4 hrs by the time they had did that test and drank quite a bit of water as I normally do and it definitely was was not my first time going to the bathroom that day. However the midwife didn't seem concerned and wanted to do some blood work as well to just make sure. I went home to wait for the results. She first told me that she would only call if the blood work was negative and I didn't receive a call until closer to 430 today. I was hoping that by it being so late in the afternoon that it was a positive since she said I wouldn't get a call unless it was negative. When she called she told me that my blood work was negative and was anywhere remotely positive. I was told that there was only two possibilities and that was either I had false positives at home or possible had been pregnant and I caught it really early and than had a very early miscarriage or what is called a chemical pregnancy. I have done a lot of reading and research the past couple of weeks and from everything I have read it seems that false positives are very rare unless you didn't follow the instructions on the pregnancy test (which I followed to the letter of the law) and more than likely what happens is you have an early miscarriage. It all doesn't seem real as we hadn't made any announcements to many people and it was all kinda quiet at home and didn't really talk that much about the baby just because I didn't want to keep bringing it up and get my hopes up. So this doesn't at all seem real. I really believed despite the negatives that I was pregnant and that we somehow lost this precious little baby and that God took a little angel home the past couple of weeks. We both know that God is ultimately in control of everything and that for whatever the reason we had to go through this season and lesson He ultimately holds us. I don't know what the future exactly holds for us but I know the ONE who holds our future and I know that He knows His plan for us.