Back to the basics!

For those who didnt know my mil and fil host a home group for their church, while its been just us and them I have throughly enjoyed it. The series is on worship. Tonight was a tough one (forgot my steel toed boots). The main point that hit home was the first thing talked about, the idols we put up in our life the things we want (i.e. our desires) as we were talking it hit me, I want JESUS and... My Will (at least for me). I realized that I want Gods best for my life but I want it in a way that makes sure that I get what I selfishly want. Not that the desires I want are bad or that they aren't in God's ultimate will and plan for my life; but do I want those things more; do I let my desires or even my laziness get in between me and my Heavenly Fathers plan for my life. I know that I have a lot of work to do and I know that I am guilty of many times putting my will and desires and selfishness and laziness ahead of what God wants me to do. If all God wanted me to do was get saved He would have called me to heaven almost 20 years ago; however He has a bigger plan for my life. I know it hasnt happened the way I thought it should or looked how it should and a lot of that is because of my selfish desires and will. I was challenged tonight to go deeper in my walk with God and to enter into worship more and longer periods of time. Also not to let my selfishness and will get in the way and stop me from where God is taking me. So I challenge all of you guys to go deeper, dig deeper, and put yourself last and God first.

Soap Box

Okay so there is something that bugs me so much and it came up around this past valentines day. (and no my honey didnt do anything wrong) I don't get these promise rings that boyfriends give girlfriends and vice versa. Growing up when a guy gave a girl a ring and a promis to get married it meant they were engaged and planning their lives together. It seems to me that if a guy gave me a "promise ring" and was like one day we will get married but was very clear that we werent engaged would be like a slap in my face as a pretend, practice committment. Come on guys if you really want to make that committment buy the ring and ask the question. Dont get a piddle ring and be like well we cant really afford to get married or in the future i will ask you to get married. Either make the commitment or dont make it. I cant blame you if you arent ready you arent ready and thats okay. Marriage is a big committment and shouldnt be entered into lightly so take your time and dont even make that type of committment lightly which is what I think of promise rings is a way to pacify your significant other. Step up to the plate and make a real committment or dont but dont play around with this. If my husband had given me a ring and said one day I promise you I will propose or one day years down the road we will get married I would have been hurt that he is leading me on and playing with my emotions. Either you want to or you dont or your sure or your not. If you dont or your not sure DONT DO IT. It makes it that much harder if for whatever reason the relationship didnt work out. Even if you cant afford to get married right now you can still ask the question and make the plans. A wedding doesnt have to be a big extravagant affair. Right before I got married my dad gave me the best advice about the wedding (this was about one week before the wedding) dont worry about the small stuff dont worry about anyone else you have a pastor you have a dress and jeremy has a tux you got it handled. When it all boils down a wedding is about you and your loved one and the committment and covenant vow you make between you guys and God. okay okay enough for now all though it does really irk me when i see this in relationships because it is just excuse to not having to make a serious committment and be a man/responsible adult...okay okay really I am done now.