Some New Thoughts...

Just some thoughts that came to me the other day...

Since God/Jesus knows everything, then did He know that Judas was stealing from the treasure/ did He know before He called him that Judas would betray him? ... Just let that sink in...

What an amazing gracious God we serve! He knew that Judas was going to betray him and steal the money and yet He poured his life out literally for him. Jesus did it to give Judas a choice to choose Him. He invested 3 years of his life with constant influence and contact with His betrayer.

How many of us would invest ourselves and spend the majority if not all of your waking hours with someone who you know will sell you out to the very people who want you dead for a measly 30 pieces of silver? That's roughly 600.00 in today's money.

We as God's children and as Christ followers have so much growing to do. It still broke God's heart and it can still break your heart but never give up on someone you love and care for.

How many times are we like Judas though? How many times do we like Judas sell Jesus out for something measly? It can be selling him out for more tv time, more time with friends, more time at work, more time to sleep. How easy is it for us to push off our quiet time or to quiet the Holy Spirit telling us to do something that is out of our comfort zone. I know I am guilty of it. We are no better than Judas if we continually do this and never change. I am not saying that there are sometimes it happens and sometimes unavoidable. Nevertheless our priority should always be Jesus and His mission and passion for the lost and hurting. 

Day 24 A difficult Time in my life.

Everyone encounters difficult times in their life and depending on their past experience something that isn't a difficult time for you but would be world changing for someone else. I think a life changing difficult time in my life was when my mom was diagnosed with cancer and died 8 years later. I was 9 years old when she was diagnosed and 17 when she passed away. It was a long hard period of time there. I remember thinking so many times that I wondered if I would make it through. I believe that God healed my mom by taking her home to heaven. There are so many days when I miss my mom and wish she was just a phone call away. I still remember her cell phone number. So many times since I was 9 I wish my mom could have been a "normal" mom. That she didn't have to be so sick and that her cancer could be gone. So many times since I was 17 and she was gone I wish I could have called her or seen her. I missed her on my graduation and wedding day and the time during when I was moving to help with packing and going through pictures and family memories. While time has definitely healed the biggest parts of missing her there are still moments when I miss her incredibly.

Day 16 Dream Job!

Growing up I have had some different dream jobs. I wanted to be a teacher at one point. Than later a labor and delivery nurse, than it was an oncology nurse. Always in the back of my mind I wanted to be a wife and mom. More specifically I wanted to be married to someone in the ministry. As I have gotten older my dream job as changed to being full time wife and mommy. I have been a full time stay at home wife since marrying Jeremy and hoping that before to much longer the second part of being a stay at home mommy will happen. So I have been living half of my dream job for almost 5 years and I am excited to start the next half when God chooses.